I don't know what's happening. Or what I'm afraid of. Things are getting pretty better with me now, but it's maybe because I've been spending a lot of time with someone I trust and that 'someone' is going away tomorrow. I'm going to miss her!
I never thought I would, honestly. But lately, now that things were getting back to what they were, I really would have loved to have you around. I'm sorry about whatever happened last year but deep down, I knew we'd be back together the way we were eventually, cuz I guess we need each other, we're just meant to be that close and have stuck together for more than seven years now. Yes, it's really been that long. Time flies I know! I am not very expressive in person so thought I'd say it here- I'll miss you.
I want you to be happy and occupied with the best of things around you. I hope things work out well for you but I want you to know that you can be happy wherever you want to be. Just believe in this and someday, you'll know. It can be very hard to feel happy sometimes; I have trouble with it myself but you know what, it's not something you look for, it's something you are. It's only when you're sad again that you realise you were happy. Okay, I don't want to go ahead with another philosophy lecture or try to promote "The Secret" again! :P Just take care of yourself. Work, tweet, chat, click photos, read, watch as many movies as you can, listen to music and have a hot cuppa ginger chai every evening - and you'll never feel away from home :) I know it's easier said than done but when it gets harder, you know you're just one call away. So, take care again. Muaah. Lots of Love.
I guess I'm back to being alone now. Everyone takes leave sooner or later. Going back to finding myself now. It's all a big question mark. There were a lot of things that I had lost and I got them back but there's one part of my life I would never want to return to. I don't know when or if I'd even open myself to it. It's scary and I'm not ready yet. Maybe I never will be.