I know its been a very long time since I've posted somethin here..
I guess I was , and still am, goin thru wat-they-call "The Quarter Life crisis"
After my last post, I appeared for a few more exams.. then trieddd havin fun in Diwali .. and went for a 10-day long tour recently to Chandigarh, Manali and Amritsar.. felt a little refreshed after that.. I'll be writin posts on that trip too..
I don't know how many of y'all have gone through this ..
but lately, I've been feeling very scared and confused about everything.
I get a feeling I don't care for people anymore.. Though thats not what I want.
I want to help people out, do things for them like I used to before.. But something seems to block me.. And even if I go ahead and do it anyway, I don't feel good from within.. This never used to happen.. I don't even know if I like my friends, my family cuz I have to, or cuz I really do.. and it gets scary ..
It actually feels like I'm stuck in some kind of a trap..
I don't want to turn into a bad person..
These thoughts have been eatin me up so bad since the last coupla months.. I had 3-4 panic attacks and depression thereafter.. I just don't know what to do..